I haven't written a post in so long because i'd simply lost all motivation to do anything so i'm taking this time to do a bit of an update. More for myself really to look back on.
To be honest my mental health hasn't been great. I've been at a constant low for some time now. I feel drained or like someone has pulled my plug. Any motivation I had at the beginning of last year has now gone and I can't seem to find it again. Leaving school in September was a pretty overwhelming time for me. I felt like i was being pressured into making big decisions and big steps to either go straight into a job or go to college. I tried college but didn't get as far as getting a placement and dropped out. I've now been signed on the sick by my GP because i physically felt like I couldn't make those big steps yet and was having a massive impact on my mental health and also being signed on the sick was so I wasn't going to get into trouble by not being in full time education or employment.
I feel like i'm at a stuck point now and don't really know what to do other than crawl into bed but I know I can't do that as it will just make me feel even shitter about myself. I need to find something I can fill my time in with; something that I enjoy doing so i'm going to try and blog a lot more as I like doing that and it helps me escape. I love doing photography and writing about different things so I guess I can try and combine the two and use my little space on the internet as a bit of therapy.
I'm taking baby steps and hopefully get myself back on track and settle my anxiety and depression.
